Esme/Essie :: June/July 2011-16 October 16, 2013
Essie passed away sometime this morning between 4-6:30 am. She was taking medicine for a recurring respiratory infection and the vet said she would be fine but when I went to give her a second dose of medicine for the day, she was unresponsive to almost everything. I was in denial because she had been fine that morning but I knew by looking at her that she was unlikely to recovery.
I wrapped her up in a towel and cried and told her she was a good rat and that I loved her and that she would get to see Rosie, her original cage mate, again and that she’d never have trouble breathing anymore and maybe one day I would even get to see her again. I held her until 4 in the morning and then I made sure she was cozy in her towel and put her in a box in the travel cage and then I wrapped the travel cage up in my blankets and I slept by the cage to make sure she didn’t go on alone.
In her prime, Essie was the most adventurous of all my rats owned to date. She jumped up my bookshelves, she climbed off my bed, and she climbed up my curtains. She was a sweetheart and a trouble maker, even when she calmed down in her later months,
All of my previous rats had been put down at the vet’s office and I didn’t know how to handle the situation but she wasn’t in pain and she went in her sleep which is much better than in pain and at a vet’s office, I(‘d like to) think. I wish I would’ve checked on her midday or something. I feel like I could have delayed this or helped or done something to make it better. I am happy that I at least was able to see her alive one last time.
Say hi to Rosie for me. I love you and miss you already, Essie.